Last night, I did something different.
I know you probably want to know what’s up with the cards and I want to tell you. If you are like me, you probably grew up being told to stay away from tarot cards. You were probably told they were evil and brought about dangerous spirits. With that being in the back of my mind I definitely was nervous about sitting at this table across from a woman that I did not know and had no clue what she would say. To be honest the tarot card scene from “Carmen” was replaying in my head. [Please tell me you’ve seen “Carmen: A Hip Hopera”!]
Let me give just a little background information, I along with some beautiful Queens were at The Nashville Night Market and it just so happened that there was a card reader there. I saw a couple sitting at the table and something inside of me wanted to do it too. I looked at my girls and asked them how they felt about it, I even texted my best friend to gain her input. I wanted to do it but I couldn’t help but think “what is she going to say?!?”, and I sho’ don’t have time for evil spirits to be lurking. I finally got up the courage to go talk to the designer of the cards. I asked her tons of questions and she gave me a little peace of mind so I decided to do it. I sat at the table with the reader and I was still nervous but what she said to me was literally confirmation. It’s amazing how God works.
I’m going to share tidbits of what she shared with me, however, I need you to understand that this was MY experience and I am nowhere near encouraging or suggesting anyone to get a tarot card reading. Understand? This was strictly something Courtney Arlesia wanted to do! I’m sure there are some who won’t agree with it and that is totally fine because again this was my experience!
I’ll break it down by each card and then I will share why I felt it was confirmation. Here goes::
When she laid the five cards on the table she asked: “are you a writer?”. OHEMGEE, YES I AM. I instantly got excited and so did she! I told her about my blog and desire to be an author. She started with the sweater and explained it meant comfort, stating that I had a very strong support system whether it be friends or family. She went on to discuss the importance of those bonds and how people are truly rooting for me. Next she discussed the pens and journal explaining to me the importance to staying true to my writing, to be bold, to be fearless, to be authentic, and to stay true to me. Also, she advised me to document all of my journey and to become friends with myself, so that I can go back and read my writings and be pleased with who I was in that very moment even if it consisted of mistakes. The bathtub symbolizes the need to let things go and to let things wash away. If things are not positive or no longer serving a purpose, then it’s time to move on from it. Lastly, the broom means that something is probably being neglected (“catching cobwebs”), however, with the location of the broom she felt it directly correlated with letting things go and not allowing my writings to collect dust.
An amazing reading, right?!?!? Well I definitely thought so and here’s why::
This year I promised myself and God that I would be bold, that I would take chances, and I would take the limits off Him. I told God and myself that I would open myself up to develop new relationships and nurture the ones that have been working. When she was talking about writing, the word bold came to mind and then she said it! I knew then that with me making the decision to launch this website was the perfect decision and that it’s truly connected with my promise. Where it will take me, I don’t know, however, I know that God has a plan for me and I stand on His promise alone. When she spoke about support it touched me and made me very grateful for those in my circle and the recent connections that I have made. Recently, I just co-hosted my first event and it was beautiful. At the same time disappointment started to surface because I was giving energy to those who did not support me, like family. There are some family members who want all your time and attention when it’s convenient for them but don’t call, text, offer help, or even care about what you are doing. I had to stop myself though, I have some amazing friends who are closer than family and let me say my family home team is strong too. I truly believe my comfort and support system is matchless! Let’s talk about letting things go! I have encountered unexpected goodbyes and some heartbreak this season and it has hurt like hell, but what I know is God makes no mistakes and EVERYTHING serves a purpose. Although unexpected, those goodbyes were needed. Now I don’t know what will come of it but I truly believe that what God needs to reconstruct, He is already working it out. I’ll step back and get out of His way. I don’t want to continue to dwell and miss out on what God has for me. God is a restorer and in His time and in HIS way, He will restore. Can I get an AMEN!?!?!?!?? I’ll end by saying this, I’m working on so much to share and not only that, but I am constantly working on a better me. I’m nowhere near perfect but as long as I’m walking this earth, I’ll continue to work on me.
To you, I hope this post brings you some encouragement to stay in the race and trust God. To take a risk and to be bold. I hope it encourages you to let go of the past and to allow God to be God in your life. Most importantly, I hope it encourages you to be true to you. Remember now, I’m not encouraging a tarot card reading. I do, however, want you to stay connected to the true source, GOD!